Leave on the Lights

by Parker Ainsworth

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beginning as a breakup record
this has become a prayer that we choose to release what no longer serves our highest
and that we choose to initiate this release with love as the ultimate motivating force


thanks to: all my family both in the gene tree and beyond,
my strong knowing mother, my poetic jovial father,
my mega-talented, ambitious sister and her brilliant and kind husband, both of my wonderful and wise grandmothers (nana and tolly) and all the rest of the branches that have taught me so much, to raining jane for helping me back into the saddle of my heart with a divine chorus of forgiveness, to everyone at cafe gratitude for constantly reminding me of who and what i really am, to the onenest for being a sanctaury for my spirit cary,ryland,sara,trent,lydiamebutman,lizzy,avasa and matty, i love you more than words will ever explain, to agape, bhakti yoga shala and vipassana, to brother andrew for reminding me of the peace the lion within knows simply in being, to the trochta's for teaching me how to learn, andy morgan for always bringing me back into my heart, dawn and the desert sunrise that delivered me to this golden state, to black rock city and all the angels i've danced with out there, red lightning, to avari for integrating sound more deeply into everything i do, to seth, liz and johnna the power y'all represent to me is unstoppable, to kari & all of my old school plush family, my peeps at nomad sound... oh the warehouse days, to all my flipside crew especially stephanie, to all the farmers markets, to michael and everyone at mcguffin estates, to katie brauer for being awesome and re-inspiring the asana in my life, to all the jedis, to all my hellcat crew tawney, shawn, ashley,amir, rachelle and matthew, to the late nights at brasa, stronghold and witzend, to jessie my fellow shapeshifting griffin and her magical man justin y'all have taught me more than you're aware of, to miss alysse fischer you remind me that i'm whole as i am everyday shadows and all and i love you for that, to yoga collective for the invitation to return to the mat, to wes switzer for believing in this music and helpin me bring it to life on stage, to mr. az for continually inspiring me to greatness, to the makepeace brothas love y'all bigger than life and coner you've taught me more than you know about how to sport a black belt in keepin it real man, to sg!!! to peter harding beyond grateful for your vision and conversation, to schibes for calling me to the waves with a smile each day, to tyler & jesse my oldest la friends i want to see more of, to bryce and paul we've come a long way fellas, to all the occupy movements across the globe!!!! to everyone at the dock and all the other people that feel the waves where they rest there head, to the lioness that say opensesame at the gates of a closed heart, to the ocean the earth the sky and the fire within us all, and everyone and everything i’ve had the opportunity to love in this lifetime. with infinite gratitude, p

special thanks to colin gil for designing all this with so much style and dean bradshaw for taking the amazing picture on the inside of the sleeve

extra special thanks to the mothers of the world
for continuing to teach me the art of all arts, the art of listening and allowing what is and will always be to flow through freely

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released December 11, 2011

all songs written and arranged by parker ainsworth
produced by parker ainsworth and robin livingston
engineered by robin livingston at the birdhouse and owl mountain
additional engineering by sejo, casey hurt and wes switzer in various studios around los angeles
mixed and mastered by robin livingston
brought to completion by the greatness of spirit

parker ainsworth - vocals, guitar, piano, glockenspiel
robin livingston - piano, ambiance, wizardry
mona tavokoli - percussion, backup vocals
becky gebhardt - bass
mai bloomfield- backup vocals
chaska potter - backup vocals
robert powell - pedal steel
drew taubenfield - dobro
carl byron - accordion
alex kelly - cello

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Parker Ainsworth Los Angeles, California

“Parker Ainsworth has the voice of a man whose lived many lives in one lifetime. He’s a mystic wandering bard…you can hear the Texan smoke in his voice and his finger picking should be studied. He’s a painter with words and his palette is plentiful. I was a fan in an instant.” ~ NohoArtsDistrict ... more

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Track Name: Leave on the Lights
you came and went like passing sunlight through the trees
warming my lips and chest i ran toward your company
the light was always strong though shadows raced so quick between
shifting the focus far away from what we're born to be

i'm lighting candles
on an alter full of stones
i close my eyes and hear you humming a new song
i'll take a book to bed
i'm going to be alone again tonight
i leave on the lights

over the mountains in the desert just beyond
you bloom again with love rising like the morning sun
i chose to let you go to know ourselves again
and now i take the time to love myself as you once did

i'm lighting candles
on an alter full of stones
i close my eyes and hear you humming a new song
i'll take a book to bed
i'm going to be alone again tonight
i leave on the lights

i'm lighting candles
on an alter full of stones
i close my eyes and hear you humming a new song
i'll take a book to bed
i'm going to be alone again tonight
i leave on the lights

tonight... i leave on the lights...
Track Name: April Full Moon
under an april full moon
i'm lookin up thinkin of you
as feelings wash over and through
under an april full moon
oh i see your eyes within my heart
beneath the soft blue light that's screaming
even fools deserve another chance

under an april full moon
candles now light up a room
with a smile you'll blow them out soon
and i pray all your wishes come true
i feel you from a distance now
beneath a moonlit sky that's singing
even angels have their work to do

under an april full moon...
i can't go to sleep
though i'm deep in a dream
of flying with you
tangled with your mouth
like vines round an old house
in a moment of laughter
smiling at all we've been through

out of nothing comes everything new
gracefully dancing in tune
equally great as we move
trusting the light of the moon
i hear your voice upon the wind
a gift that calls for opening
and rising like a dozen white balloons

under an april full moon
under an april full moon
under an april full moon
Track Name: Time to Let Go
me and momma drivin and i don't know why she's crying once again
trees are passing by planes up in the sky and autumn wind
as she reaches for the dial with the edges of a smile full of grace
turning up the song so we both can sing along while dads away

oh let go of what has been
there's nothing there for you my friend

i moved out to the city to be closer to the love that i had found
the greatest one i'd ever known deserving of a scepter throne and crown
but our fears became it all and like a shattered waterfall of glass and grey
blessed mirrors that we'd been became reflections of two strangers gone a stray

oh let go of what has been
there's nothing there for you my friend
oh let go of what has been
there's nothing there for you my friend

i cant believe all the pain we've caused
delivered to the ones we love the most
i didnt even know i didnt know
how i had been acting out a ghost
of all the ignorance i condemned
now i can feel how hard it is
when you live trapped by your judgements
blinded by a fear of not knowing
so now as i trust it all by choice
and gratefully surrender to the source
everything is perfect as it is
all within a magic universe

it's time to let go
it's time to let go

oh let go of what has been
there's nothing there for you my friend
oh let go of what has been
there's nothing there for you my friend

it's time to let go
it's time to let go...
Track Name: The Projectionist
i know i haven't been supportive in the past
a dilapidated theater always threatening to collapse
littered at the entry old ticket stubs and chewing gum
and velvet rope stanchions then ushered us on
once graciously invited toward the creaky seats
every step taken a picture focused on the screen
there projected in your eyes came alive the cruelest fears i'd grown to know in several life times
as all the monsters of my doubts and criticisms screamingly clear attacking whats most close and dear
yelling stop to the projectionist who slowly turned to hear my objections then
when i finally met his gaze my stomach dropped miles below the floor, beneath his mask he wore my face
surrendering to silence tears gushed in violence i felt toward myself which was the cause of this i saw
i never wished to cast what's poisoned me into another soul especially yours, a goddess queen
day after day i forgive myself for that
if practice makes perfect i'm a forgiver,
forgiveness now my craft
as for the movie house inside my head that held the dark?
i burned it down, built an amusement park inside my heart
for all the roller coasters, carousels and ferris wheels
serve to shake me from my memories and remember how real life feels...
Track Name: The Forgiver
you're forgiven for your anger
forgiven for your fear
forgiven for not listening with your heart but just your ears
forgiven for the moments that you lost yourself in pain
forgiven for the choices that you wish that you could change

forgiveness courses through our hearts
each moment marks another start
believe we'll get a chance again
when all has been forgiven
 
we are...

forgiven for impatience
forgive your own distrust
forgiven for withholding gratitude from those you love
forgiven for your judgments
you can forgive your ceaseless mind 
forgiven for forgetting who you really are inside

forgiveness courses through our hearts
each moment marks another start
believe we'll get a chance again
when all has been forgiven

we are forgiven
all we are forgiven...

forgiveness courses through our hearts
each moment marks another start
believe we'll get a chance again
when all has been forgiven
in our hearts
each moment marks another start
believe we'll get a chance again
when all has been forgiven

      
Track Name: Favorite Jeans (Bonus Track)
my favorite jeans are loosing their knees
worked away slowly with comfort and ease
a constant companion through think and through thin
i've worn them for ages these jeans are my friend
a reminder of people and places i've known
these jeans have a history a life of their own
as the colors fade steady with each passing day
the past move farther and farther away

i'd throw these old tattered blue jeans away
if i thought that would free me from you
but my mind's been a slave to the memories we made
so i wait as they fade away too

there's holes in my favorite jeans pockets
everything that i put there falls through
all the change i could spend on phone calls and candy
ends up on the street before noon
it's not that i don't think about
maybe sewing my pockets up soon
but forgetting what needs to be done is so easy
when all i can think of is you

i'd throw these old tattered blue jeans away
if i thought that would free me from you
but my mind's been a slave to the memories we made
so i wait as they fade away too

my favorite jeans are dying
with them dies all that they knew
in knowing forgetting could be all that simple
and i might meet somebody new
yeah i might meet somebody new